He will provide

Recently, I had what I like to call a worry spell. What generally happens is I take all of the issues that I deal with on a daily basis and allow them to compile and fester until I break and end up going nuts for anywhere from a week to a month. Among the issues which plagued me were money, work, school, and the Awana's ministry at my church. For about a week I stewed over all of these things that seemed to be crumbling down around me. The other day I spoke with a friend of mine about all of this. Among all of the things that he said to me, one thing stood out. He said a very simple phrase that I had heard many times before. "God will provide." Now this was something that I new to be true and had actually been saying to myself for the duration of my worrying. However it only seemed to do some good after I heard someone else say it to me. It was at that point that I became aware of all of the blessings that God had been giving me. I have a secure job. I have family that is willing to let me live at home until I can go out on my own. I have a child at my job that is interested in visiting my church. I have a number of small onetime job opportunities that will fill in the gaps. Last and most definitely not least, I have a beautiful girl that God has put into my life and I have fallen in love with her. All of these are things that God has given me and yet I still insisted on worrying about things beyond my control. Part of dealing with life is realizing that it is always your fault. Wherever you are, what ever you're going through, you are there in that situation as a result of decisions you have made and the subsequent consequences of those decisions. I prayed about some things and made choices based on the spirit moving in my life. Those choices were not easy and God is taking me on a wild ride to where he wants me to be next. However, no matter how tough it gets, no matter how uneasy it makes you, God will provide. So take comfort. Part of dealing with life is realizing that it is always your fault. Wherever you are, what ever you're going through, you are there in that situation as a result of decisions you have made and the subsequent consequences of those decisions. I prayed about some things and made choices based on the spirit moving in my life. Those choices were not easy and God is taking me on a wild ride to where he wants me to be next. However, no matter how tough it gets, no matter how uneasy it makes you, God will provide. So take comfort. For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11